Adding a splash of colour to life;

Saturday, June 13, 2009 @ 10:21 PM

moved!

i've moved to lj;

pocketedmelody.livejournal.com!

wont be deleting this blog so soon, i guess.

so long, blogger.

Monday, June 08, 2009 @ 2:32 AM

unearthly nights;

oh no im up again at such an unearthly hour. shiz i think my body clock's really screwed even in the holidays O: no im not going to wake up again at 4 tomorrow like i did the past two days.

i feel like time is rolling away like nobody's business, but yet people roll away with time (LOL do i make sense). i think im just not using my time wisely enough. need to brush up on many many things, academia, choir and whatnots.

stupid ziwei's still up at this hour when tomorrow's OBS (?!), and she's doing MATH SIA. aw im really proud of her(: but i remembered how kiasu i was in march that i slept quite early cos i was worried i would vomit the next day in the bus or something. shannon, minqhee, ziwei, stupid black woman and more all leaving for OBS tomorrow; all the best! it'll be good if you allow it to be.

im thinking of seriously migrating to livejournal since all's still here. tagboard's equal to non-existent cos unlike some people's mine's really ancient and dead hahaha. so yes, will be moving to lj soon(: lj = inspiration, somehow.

chinese tuition tomorrow at 1030, and then meeting jolene to go to the library to borrow books for chinese sia.

i think the whole world's asleep now except for crazy people like me. but i feel wide awake.

i seriously am convinced that i'll live a better life in America.

Sunday, June 07, 2009 @ 12:06 AM

sister's birthday gathering;

woke up super late today and took quite a while to drag myself off bed(s) so i only really woke up at 4, hehe.

gathering was yet another heartwarming one, with i think the exact right number of people, but missing some that really made it different. ): but it was still awesome, though. it was great having awesome people like you over; hope you guys enjoyed it(:

seniors; all wearing tanktops!

lastly, for YOU annoying little brat:

no matter how much we involve ourselves in serious catfights/quarrel/argue etc all the time, you'll always be my sister and im really thankful for that, for various reasons that i've overcome to realise as we grow up together. although we arent really close (despite our twin-like faces D: ) i definitely believe we will be those inseparable ones in time to come. i cant believe you're already p6; from that small little annoying apple like doll to a big girl that's annoying STILL. although we dont show it, your infectious and undying laughter and crazy antics take a great place in our hearts. happy birthday, little girl.♥

All i ever think about is you

You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized

it never changed.

Thursday, June 04, 2009 @ 4:13 PM

lifebuoy, come to me.

settling everything at home creates a headache. my schedule's full to the brim, and im so overwhelmed by the workload. D: i think im currently being quite annoying to my group members, after sending out various emails to them about project meetings, etc etc. and worse still, some of these people are in the same group as me for various SIAs. im sorry D:

i hope meeting up earlier and doing these on time will really help. i feel like im drowning in this huge, vast ocean and there's this inaccessible lifebuoy somewhere far away, and all i can do is to swim there with all my might and clutch onto it for dear life. this lifebuoy is the only hope i have left. but the worst thing is, i dont know what my lifebuoy in life is.

perseverance and faith; the key factors of survival for this arduous journey.

Wednesday, June 03, 2009 @ 10:31 PM

whisper of my heart;

such a nice name for a cartoon, aint it?(:

had been having choir for the past 2 days, and we did loads and i felt like someone was bashing me up but nevertheless managed to hang on. my head's really breaking i guess, after all those lack-of-sleep nights which really conjured up all the fatigue and blah.

nevermind. went to loyee's house yesterday with leting and watch "whisper of my heart", a really cool japanese cartoon, a studio ghibli production. i aint no cartoon fanatic but ponyo and this really weird cartoon really changed my opinions about cartoons hehe. ignoring the fact that i slept for 15 min in the middle of the movie though.

it's already june now; handover's going to take place sooner than all of us think. the expectations are raised, the hopes and worries too. i can never imagine what it will be like for our batch to take charge of the choir, and be responsible for whatever we achieve. its daunting, really, to look ahead and realise how much more time we have with the sec4s before they actually really leave. its sad. ): i dont want them to ever leave; it still feels like the days when we just joined this fabulous choral group and now we're one step to being the "head" of it. boy, i never thought it would be this hard. looking down the path ahead, it really is going to be challenging and strenuous, but no matter how hard it will be, we have to take everything in our stride and move on. after all its a major milestone all of us have to go through, one day. i believe in us. ♥

tomorrow's rest day(: and i've finished audio diary (finally). june seems to be a huge burden, with 7 SIAs weighing us down. awesome.

Sunday, May 31, 2009 @ 1:13 PM

neither here nor there.

the school term's finally over.

liberty comes together with relief, yet emptiness i guess. sigh. sabbaticals week was plain torture; sorry for the constant rantings/complaints but i really should have chosen my sabbats): gahhh.

actually... the sabbats were generally.. fine, but you know one just feels like tearing herself apart in that enclosed room. my eyelids threatened to close like every minute. but at least we had some takeaways from those sessions, and fortunately they got better as the week passed.

we've been learning many many new songs in choir. the schedule's very rushed since we have to cram the learning of so many new songs into only limited practices.. so it all comes down to 1 new song per practice. and we need to rehearse for FOA and SYF showcase too.. which are ALL in july so coincidentally.

from now on, my life will be revolving around choir and studies. 3 times a week of practice in the holidays except the second week, then many, many practices in term3, including the struggling of revision for blocks. my life is so not going to be mundane anymore. what with like, 7 SIAs in the holidays. the stress is not coming to me yet but i hope it comes soon. then i'll have that drive and motivation and i'll be spurred on to complete everything on my checklist. yes yes this june holiday is going to be a productive one.

really looking forward to heartwarming gatherings eg 601 and RAS and with jerlyn and cass and 205 (if there is).. hopefully they will happen.

i suddenly find my recent posts so lifeless.. i dont know where my inspiration of posting went to. haha i realised i've turned into some lifeless fallen leaf from a tree but i want to be alive again.

so dear Mr holiday, your job is to wake Amanda Tan up from her deep sleep and make her realise how much more there is to the world, apart from the things she has been concentrating on for a really long time.

i need to go shopping.

Sunday, May 24, 2009 @ 9:09 PM

now that we're separated, it feels different.

the things we used to do, they all used to be the same. now they're all different it feels terribly.. strange. and sad most of the time. the so different lives we lead now will bring us towards different paths, i have realised that by now. its a fact that i've avoided so much; the moment it comes hitting hard on me, i'll fall.

as much as i hate to admit, the breakaway is inevitable... and is happening. the one and only solution is to accept it, and live with it.

ugh sabbs week. total dread.