INEFFABLE TEARS OF PASSION.
maybe its just me; but have i become more vulnerable to tears?
school has been surprisingly an increasing significance, after the many ups and downs in school life.
choir practice today was a simply horrifying experience. what with the pathetic number of FIVE sec2s for the first half an hour. it would have been four if jiahui didnt sacrifice her throat well-being to make the sec 2 batch seem a little better, and i really appreciate it, thanks(:
yeah and so we screwed up most of the warmups, as expected. blasted off like nobody's business, but i still could feel my voice stuck all the way back in my throat.
and after that we sang through the first half programme of the concert.
what ms lim said was quite true; we arent feeling the sense of urgency yet. the concert's exactly 30 days away, and we havent mastered any song yet plus we've still a few other songs to start learning. the situation looks horrible, but i hope like what mr mac said, the concert'll be fine, it'll be fine.
frankly speaking i havent felt so strongly about choir before. maybe my passion for it has been growing unknowingly. there are too many maybes to list, but one thing for sure, i have never felt that ive got this huge responsibility in choir, even as a normal chorister.
and most importantly, ive learnt how to appreciate and not take things for granted. for instance, ms lim. and just many other choristers whom ive just probably been treating as just a singing company. i wonder what i would be like now if there isnt leting, cos i was at a terrible loss today with the absence of her.
and really the sweetest things she said really spurred me on to go over that high G in comotu. sorry and thanks<3
now i know why people cry for choir.
i guess.. this is the true passion anyone can ever have for anything important to them.(:
but still, i know we can do it. because we're NYC. yeah, we will. JIAYOU!<3
xxx
there are as usual many things to look forward and dread for the rest of the week. hopefully i'll be able to pull through these torrents of stress.
after thursday, we'll be free from the death clutches of OM, free to be at liberty at last. gong1wen2 on friday, LA graded assignment on thursday, choir prac on friday and next tuesday.. i'll just treat them as distractions from death, like what mr chow said today.
life seems unbearable now.. but somehow later if i look back, i know it isnt as bad as it seems. so to everyone out there (including myself!) CONTINUE HAVING FAITH.
there isnt such a thing called game over in a game of true friendship, just counters for you patch things back. im happy for you<3