Thursday, July 31, 2008 @ 12:13 AM
outcry;
life's been SUPER hectic lately. only had approximately 4 hours of sleep each these nights.
its already enough, i dont need anything else on my mind.
probably most people would view me as the cause of the effect, and its not that i dont care, if i do care i'll burst someday. the intensity of negative feelings has increased steadily recently i must say, so much that i dont know what i did wrong.
its not like im not in any fault, but at least, please dont treat me like an invisible wall. i can sense every tinge of meaning hidden behind every loud spoken word, and maybe i've got it all wrong, but trying everything makes everything seem worse, and not doing anything isnt a way out.
nothing i say or do will help anything now, because all i know is that i will get mistaken for doing the wrong thing when all i want.. is the best.
much has changed within these few weeks.. but you towards me.. that impression will never change; it'll remain the same as before.
Saturday, July 26, 2008 @ 9:20 PM
transcending contradictions.
hey(:
here comes the graz pictures.. after so long.
flight group photo at the airport(:
sam & yeujia, heh.
amanda + amanda<3
candid shot of camera shy yeujia:D
lanxin!
as redbull is originally manufactured in austria.. here comes a big load of them.
fyi, this is a restaurant.
group photo(: and very sadly.. the last one that's taken in vienna.
banana split(: i think?
"whoo~~ may all the bananas in the world unite!"
the blue danube which sparkles under the sunlight(:
pretty flowers even on a random grass patch
horse + carriages?
yinnshan and audrey, heh.
looks like an overturned castle.
at the opening ceremony (parade) youming and jiahui(:
POCK. funnyname for a shop. HAHA.
opening ceremony at stadhelle!
lorhyee.
leting.
ehheh, me?
basically i've been trying to figure how to post all the photos in a very organised and non-mixed up way but a sotong like me took a few hours just to do that, heh. so i think i shall post more photos later on(:
oh today was very.. heartwarming. to be back at home in m3.. i dont know it felt quite indescribable(: discussed ms lim's birthday bash but the interviews came as a shock to me cos thought the names written on the whiteboard were for attendance till i saw "elections". hyperventilated but surprisingly interviews were like chat sessions with seniors(:
after choir had to wait for parents to finish the briefing session for subject choices.. so met jolene then kahmun tania vanessa and audrey and we waited together. had dinner all the way at east coast, where my parents had to meet their BUSINESS clients for dinner o.o i didnt know, really. i just enjoyed the food there and i made my presence.. unnoticable. haha.
then went to celeste's for project today. felt quite accomplished cos we figured our do-s and do not-s for our actual product.. and yeah, hope it'll eventually turn out to be a success!
weekends have been quite relaxed.. and monday's cross country. i havent run for like.. er almost a month; dont know whether im going to just drop down and die in macritchie, heh. and then the whole batch's gonna head to baoxian's house for lunch + ms lim's birthday bash preparation..
wow theres so many things going on consecutively.. there wont ever be a stop in time i guess.
for now.. i have to figure out just what's due and what's not on monday and the following days.. just so that i wont get overloaded with unknown workload and yeah.. you get what i mean.