im just so puzzled-just so puzzled to know how good my seniors sing. to hear how fabulously fabolous they sing. how they've gone through their life in nanyang. how they actually SURVIVE. i just finished reading jac's and jiamin's blogs... seriously. i didnt know their blogs even existed. even the nyc blog?! oh gosh. all from becky's blog la(:
oh but. how do THEY actually survive in nanyang? im in sec 1 and im almost dying here. what will it be like in sec 4? tell me about it. its like im immersed in a sea of question marks. yes, i can admit im always avoiding LIFE questions like these. seeing all the sec 4s, i wonder and wonder. but i believe. my 4 years, no, 3 1/2 years will be a promising one. with the absolutely WONDERFUL seniors i have with me(: be it sec 2s, sec 3s, or sec 4s, EVERYONE. even my wonderful sec ones. they guide me through, not just through choir, but my life, my passion towards singing. for once, i feel as if my choirmates are my one and only soulmates, who understand me, understand what im doing, understand my life, my everything. FOR ONCE. i've never felt like this before. no offence, but this feeling has never evoked me in rosyth choir. :/ but anyway! its like. for the recent choral competition, everybody ( as in onefivers) has been like. "oh! you sing so good lehh!" "wah! you sing very well leh!" okay, these may not be the exact words. but still. im like NOTHING compared to jac jiamin tiff etc.?! like squashed peanuts to peanut butter?! "aiyah,dont worry la. the AIR will be gone once you reach sec 2."the seniors say. nah, i aint convinced. my voice has been DOWNGRADING since. um. i dont know. but! the high notes. THE HIGH NOTES. i feel like digging them out with my bare hands from my stupid throat. in choir. the notes like high A, which i used to be able to sing, I CANT EVEN REACH THEM NOW. i dont feel like i belong to choir anymore. i've lost my confidence:( but. ever since the recent NJC concert, i've felt closer to choir. the bonding between myself and the whole of the choir gave me back my confidence. there, right up on the stage, i've been able to show my passion for singing. the first time in my whole entire choral life, i enjoyed myself up on stage. well, i guess i've felt the same way when it was syf in pri 4, like 3 years ago. but ever since the syf in 2006, i was sure that i will never get that extremely wonderful feeling back again. but. this proved me wrong. at first, i was thinking that choir was not fun AT ALL. all singing singing singing, all AHH AHH AHH. i even had doubts about putting choir as the first choice. if i could turn back time, i promise i will slap myself. but MOST fortunately, i didnt put it as second choice. i hate myself for having doubts about choir. cos now, i feel it is the bestestly bestest bester best thing on the whole of mama earth(:
talking about this, i really feel blessed to have such many nice nice nice seniors around me. pple like rebekah, amanda!, jiamin, tiffany, yingting, terri, okay, maybe the WHOLE CHOIR. although they are not close to me, im very happy to say they have made singing a very important thing in my life. never, never am i going to say that choir is boring, ever again. cos i repeat.
i feel it is the bestestly bestest bester best thing on the whole of mama earth. i feel like being in nanyang choir is the best accomplishment i've made. cos ahead of me, is the bright road filled with a myriad of colours, flying notes, beautiful scores. i once regretted being a choir member, but now i am not regretting, and in future, a definite will-not regret.
and talk about the yuan fen we have between us-the choirettes.
i was in suntec city for this stupid pc fair ( no offence, im a person who really HATES crowded places.) which my mum dragged me to. and i was just thinking of tiffany of the card thing, okay fine. i was thinking about it for three whole days. and i was just picturing her on the escalator behind me. and i turned in front. and when i turned back,
KABOOM! it was her there. i was like. OH MY BLOODY GOSH? she looked surprised to see me. i couldnt picture her man. i stood rooted to the ground, staring at her, like a complete idiot! i wasnt even aware that my family was already walking-away. i forgot to say hi to her. or did i? forgot. and i just ran away like that. LOL! i spent the whole of the walking through the fair thinking about this, and kept saying like "i cant believe that i saw my choir senior leh!" to my mum on that day and the following day. believe me, you would have wanted me to die.(: i said it so many times my mum got so fed up that she avoided me wherever she went. i mean, for a while. Haha! but isnt it just so, amazing? yes, i know it is(: count the incident when sheryin and i bought the same courtshoes! yeahyeah.
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